I'm sorry, I didn't want to get more people involved in this if I didn't have to. Especially people that do other daily activities like posting on twitter. I've become consumed by the situation. Doing everything I can to resolve things in a way nobody gets hurt. Not just me, but my family (which includes literal children), my oomfies, my friends, my subs, my gf, and innocent bystanders that shouldn't even be a part of this. I don't think yazrii is a bad person, his heart was in the right spot, but a bad first impression, a lack of context, and some shady methods has caused a lot of issuses. People involved that are actual criminals makes things complicated. Doxxing/hacking groups from russia, south america, and eastern europe are scary. People operating on telegram with illegal methods to do EDRs (Emergency Data Requests), grab SSN, or send SWAT is scary. I care about you, I care about a lot of subs. It feels like a total failure on my part for not being able to compose myself in a way where I can focus on this stuff while still making those around me feel cared and loved for. Abandoning friends and subs for days or weeks while I try to fix things feels fucking awful but for my mental health I have to focus on this. I have to remove my phone from everything, I have to change emails on everything, I have to go to the local Social Security Administration and request a block on my SSN, I have to message the three major credit bureaus and request a freeze on my credit, I have to get a second name change but with a new law passed I have to request a petition this time so that my name change can be sealed (not public record), I need to look into all the ways to remove my personal info off the internet (at least surface level). My ex got involved and they know some of my personal info, were a school shooter, and now I have to look into a restraining order (civil). I had to file police reports as precautions. I might have to hire a lawyer(s) if things get messy. I have to install security devices for my mom's house (cameras, motion detector lights, better front door). have to talk to my family and it's causing a lot of stress. My family isn't doing good, we aren't eating right, we can't sleep, we have a lack of motivation to do things, we've been arguing over the entire situation and I had to listen to my mom crying on the phone begging me to return home because she's scared. I had to listen to her say she wanted to kill herself. I talked with Kibi, I talked with Yazrii, I really think things are going to be okay but they will never be the same. I'm working on a goodbye video, I'm gonna have to give up CeCeFem. I have to go out on good terms and let people know the truth. I need people to know it was a character, that I never killed anyone, that I never caused anyone to commit suicide, that I never blackmailed anyone onto HRT or self-harm, that I never would've got Cherry to kill herself and that I was protecting her the entire time during a stupid interaction I was having with yazrii, that everything was a larger than life character. Even if the pinkpilling part was 100% real and I love all my daughters I don't need to get into the details. What's important is that the video people will give people less of a reason to dig into me. People who were curious will give up since I'll be off twitter and moving in December, people who just hate me will give up because I'll be gone and they will see it as "we won, CeCe stopped". Yazrii knows I plan on doing this and he's already said he doesn't plan on doxing me, he's just in a weird spot himself because if people think he's part of a CeCe 'cord gayops he will become a target. He's already said he's willing to help think of ways where he doesn't dox me but it doesn't come out suspicious. The longer I take to finish making this video the scarier it gets because at any moment a new person could show up and fuck things up, either by finding my doxx through leaked info or illegal methods
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